Friday, July 10, 2009
{ 10:19 PM }
Well its saturday and i freaking dun haf plans!! Well dun ask me why, even i dun haf the answer to it. sucks rite? I know.. Somebody call me out can? HAIZZ..im juz listening to MJ songs. Kinda cool.Emm and yesterday midnite, bf wanted to see me a while, and i thought of sneaking out fer a while, till mum saw me. Crapped. It sucked to get partially caught. Then atlast i juz told her the truth and went down to see him. He actually missed me badly, and i missed u too! But i feel that i couldn really feel much love, i guess its becoz many things affected me in the past. But i sincerely do love him. I dunno why at times i get reminded of that muthafucker. I dun intend to get reminded of him too, at tymes it just happens. i dun even to think or talk abt him. But recently ive done alot of thinking abt him, it sucked big time. Now my love, is mad at me. He doesnt even wants to chat with me. I feel sucky abt it. At times relationships are hard to maintain, like they say not everyday is honeymoon. There are always ups and downs. Spending my days at home, sucks alot. Ive nvr been like this. And i so cant find a job as well. Can somebody freakin call me to start work?? Haiz how much of interviewing its nt werking at all. Dun ask me why, i dun wish to explain. Hmm..im confused abt many things. stayin at home, its making me go mad. I think abt many unneccessary stuff which just makes me confused. And many things will just go abt running into ur mind.
