Monday, February 09, 2009
{ 12:48 AM }
After quite some time im here again. This time my life became more miserable. He is so gone from my life and i had enuff of him. He hurt me so much, and im so depressed right now. He juz came and left me with a scar. I cant open this to anyone except my close friend. Recently i became more miserable day by day and now i haf to attend counselling. Im dreading this but i haf no choice. Its smething which i dun wan to go to but im left with no choice. I need him away from me thou i did like him alot. I din noe one person can juz make so much of difference in my life. I dun need any guy in my life. I prefer it to be this way. I deleted off all his memories in my hp. I need to boost up my confidence. Its hurting me alot when i found out he actually used me. How am i suppose to forget things so easily. I need a solution to all this. Another one more person who is rahman is also gonna be so out of my life. He is also one more extra person who made me very upset. Thou i treated him as a fren, but he din. Nothing cheers me up nowadays. I wish he was with me but like i said i can only wish. Sweets goodbye!
School has been normal as usual la. Gonna graduate soon and i cant wait. yipee!! Valentine's day is arnd the corner and im choosing to ignore it thou im gonna be rotting at home which is sucky. I want to spend it with someone i like or love but i have none. So hopefully i can do smething useful on this day. And my current job which was swensens, im no longer working there. I resigned. Haha. For now nothing is making me happy. All im doing in indulging in food and im so putting on weight. Its time i should shed some weight. crapp.