Wednesday, January 28, 2009
{ 4:01 AM }
im no longer important to anyone.i feel im such a loser.A pain to everyone.I decided to leave him for good, he treats me more worser den anyone wld want to be treated as. I genuinely liked him alot but to think he actually acted all this while. How stupid can i be. I am the one to blame for believing him. Im trying to stay away frm nt texting or calling him. I wan to get over him. Its so hard for me actually. Why must all this happen to me.Im very hurt. Sweets, i will try hard to forget you. But u will always be in my mind. The things i did for u was true. I still haven delete ur pics, throw away ur ring and delete ur msgs. I juz cldn. I wish u wld understand how i feel towards u. Muaah sweets. Juz take care.Last week had a long holiday due to chinese new year, but still ended up werking. hahas. Monday went to slack wit judith at her place and we had ben and jerrys. Took the wrong choice which was choc chip. Den chatted and emoed together. Till rahman text me asking me to go clubbing wit he and his fren. Since we were so upset, we juz went along. Headed to celebrity which was a bad choice. Dance and drink the nite till judith got dead drunk and started blaberring to rahman abt me. It was sweet of her but it got bth of us to emotional, and went to tears. After club, we slacked and once again i met HIM. He once again disappointed me. I felt so upset. This is not suppose to happen. Im trying not to ponder abt tis. And the following afternoon i had to head to werk. Was quite tired but no choice i haf to werk. Den after werk met rahman and talked. It seems dat my life is so complicated.Sweets i miss u. muaah