Friday, March 02, 2007
{ 9:38 AM }
im all alone. cryin and cryin has been my passion. my day started off badly.wen late to werk.den did mistakes in my orders. fuck! nuthin has been rite for me. how i wished my bf wld be able to comfort me. hw i wish i cld lie on his shoulders and cry.i hid many things. my past, me has nvr been gd. i did understand u. hw i wished this blog wld be full of memories. the times i spent wif him. nah! nvr will be. i cried so much. bt haf he ever told me nt to cry. nah it nvr has happened. i wanna lie on him,den cry and slowly go to sleep. i cnt handle all this anymore. atlest there is a blog for me to write everythin. wld we still be together?? despite all this craps. i wish i cld hold his hand and feel that he cld protect every singe thing i have in my life. i love u! i wen tru alot. bt to laugh at it, im still so young. yet to experience all this. i din wan to tell u all this coz u might get angry. i fear ur anger. i wanna live wif u. despite watever my parents, relatives said im still strong abt u. i did lose alot of hope. bt i told myself, even tho he doesnt stand by my side, i wld still be strong. i did. i won! i stood by everythin for almost a year. but i told myself, stop cryin u slut! why mus u cry!?? why? why? why?? why?? why????????? i cant answer that. i wished u wld hold me tight and tell me dun cry hairun, coz no matter wad happens i will be wif u. nah! that din happpen either. im dreamin! im freakin out! in love. all the scoldings i got, din seem to be worth. why da? why? i wan to noe an answer! hope after wadeva happen, u will still treat me the same as u used to. after todae i wanna write abt the days i spent wif u. the time i had wif u. pls...................
