Monday, February 19, 2007
{ 7:45 AM }
im back.earlier cldnt write up anithin yt.this whole yr wasnt tt gd for me.my personal life hasnt been doin well..and todae i gt a swollen eye. so sad.cld hardly see anithin..lols.but still cld type la.din go werk todae. abt me and him,, nuthin is gd. haf been cryin all the time. and full of tension and depression.he hasnt been gd to me.made me cry.he din even make me laugh.its been long ever since i laughed wholeheartedly.and even noe he still dun understand tt he made me very upset.all the guys i noe did this to me includin him. if u are readin this,thanks for everythin.i dunnoe why all this is happenin to me.bt whithin this 3 days he still behaves like this.there is nth i can do abt it.and i guess its time to end everythin.i jus cnt cry animore for him.he behaves like a fool.i did so much for him.bt to think he din even appreciate me for tt.guys can really be torturable.hw long am i gonna solve all this crap? its been very long.im extremely tired.he tinks buyin me stuffs can keep me happy? he is totally wrong.i din ask much frm him.jus to love me.he cnt even do tt. and he claims he loves me.i dun tink so.nw he still the same.i jus dun wan this to bother me animore.i wan to be ma usual self.and be happy always.its been long i ever talked to him openly.i haf a guy bt to tink i dun haf him to tell ma probs to.hw saddenin.?? then wads the pt of bein together?? so tt i wnt cry.stop deceivin urself hairun!! jus wake up!! if he did love u, he wld have done somethin within these 2 days bt nth comes out frm it. will he be like hw he was before?? i dun tink he can animore. he is nt the guy i knew a year ago. pls pls pls. try to understand a gal first. dun hurt her. it might take yrs to heal.